AAARRRGGGHHH !!!! So SAD n ANGRY !!!!

Ridiculous…really ridiculous…make me angry till can’t breathe…What kind of people also I don’t know…in this world you will not find another person that act like this…this is the first time i feel that friends are more important than your girlfriend…if so…then you better marry with your friend la...more easyer wat...!!!
Let me ask you…where you can find a girlfriend that let you go out with your friends all the time and whenever you want…where you can find a girlfriend that never scold you for never accompany her…i never request anything from…i just need you to more care me…and don’t always left me alone and ignore me…is it this kind of request also counted over???is it???ok…if weekdays you busy work till no time to reply my message,i still can accept…but after work and during night you didn’t company me... i really can’t accept…but did i say anything???did i???everytime i be patience…everytime i forgive and forget…then the more i forgive…seems like you don’t care…you just acting more and more over…everytime you got many excuses…when is the time i never say"ok la ok la or nvm lol next time la"…but until today you really make me angry…don’t you know that everyone patience got limit???i also human being…can’t you juz treat me more good???just because we already long time didn’t realy talk to each other…so i always take the first step to call you…but in the end…after for only 2 or 3 minutes conversation…you said don’t wanna talk already…don’t you know that really hurt my feeling…and the reason you gave…don’t you think is very lame excuses…i really dissappointed…really really dissappointed aaarrrggghhh....

I realy hope that u will change...plz...!!!

STOP SUFFERING & FASTER END IT

I wish...stop suffering and faster end it our relastion aaarrrgghhh !!!
I m so tired aaarrrggghhh !!!
Y U wan to make me so SUFFER ????
Y U wan to make me so SAD ????
Y U wan to make me so LOVE U ????
Y U wan to make me so MISS U ????
Y U wan to make me so HATE U ????
I realy don wan got that feeling again,coz it hurting me very pain and very deep in heart...
Do U knw that ?????? Do U realy ask me before ?????? Do U knw i'm so SUFFER...SAD ????
"I juz wan to knw...DO U KNW THIS ALL THINGS ????

Suffer...suffer and suffer...

I ask J, y u wan to ask me for together again?
he say, half is becoz my family n half is becoz he still love me...
"hahahahahaha"i'm so stupid so stupid aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrr....
Stupid y i so so so love him......
but he leh...but he leh...but he leh...!!!!!!
I think all is becoz my family problem so J wan together wif me lol...
Not he realy love me then wan together de lol...right???
Haizzzzzzzzzz...Don no aaaarrrrr....!!!
I juz knw i'm so stupid lol very very stupid lol....
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO TIRED ARR....SO SAD ARR....SO SUFFER ARR...(T.T)

Poems For Friends

*Leaves may fall
Flowers may die...
Friends may forgot
But never shall i...
*Made new friends
Do not forget the old...
For one is silver
The other is gold...
*Aroud the Penang Island
The sea is blue...
In this world
One of my friend is you...
*Sun or rain
Fat or thin...
You are my friend
And that is the dearest thing...
*Today is treasure
Tomorrow is future...
Remember me forever
When we are not together...
*Roses are red
Violets are blue...
Suger are sweet
But not as sweet as you...

"I lied J"

Friday night...
me was talking wit J in the phone...
I ask J is he happy that we r frens only?...he say, ya got alittle bit happy lol...coz we still can be frens...
I ask J is he still want to be juz fren wit me?...he say, y not!! be frens more batter then be couple...
After that,i tell J...last few weeks"i really cant forget u...i very love u..."
But this few days "i already starting no feel to love u anymore...juz got like u only"
For me love n like are not same...
Love is use heart to loveing u...
Like is "who i also can like"...
That is the thing i tell J that night...
*Hope me n J can be more happy without each other*

My Cousin's Wedding

That day is my cousin's wedding....they celebrate in a restoren at Seberang Jaya there...
J that day also got come,coz my father call him to come....
me n my frens sit at same table...
J also sit wif me,but he is not my boyfren already.He juz pretend be my boyfren in front of my family...coz my family don no we are broke up already...
I don no how to tell them.So,i din tell them...!!!
But that day me n J act like real couple...very happy...very lovely...very sweet n very funny too..
Don no y..when that time,i feld like very happy lol...coz already long time we din get together so happy...until want to cry...but at last i also no cry out~~
Me n J drink too much beer n wine...we hug...we laugh..we drink n we drunk~~
After that J also go back to his home...me also go back my home...!!!
Don no y...i suddently cry very loud in my room alone...Coz i feel all this happening to night are fake...all are juz pretending only...all are fake fake fake arrrrrrr.......!!!!!!! Not real....
*Until today i still very miss the thing that happen that day in the restoren...
*Mayb J don no about my feeling...coz i don want let him know ...coz i don want him to think too much...coz i want him to forget me...coz i wan him to be happy without me...coz i still very love him..........................................

LOve = RoseS

*If our relationship is like a rose, how long it lasts, no one will actually know. Love can erase all the awful past. And love can be yours, but you’ll only realise in the end… To feel that love, it sometimes makes you sigh… But to have it to leave, some of you would rather die. A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person… I hereby hope that you’ve found that special rose, and that you love and care for the one you’ve chose…
*Which is right and what is wrong … I hope u have the answer deep down at the bottom of your heart …

The feeling of loving someone...

You can’t stop loving or wanting to love because when its right, it’s the best thing in the world. When you’re in a relationship and it’s good, even if nothing else in your life is right, you feel like your whole world is complete. Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable, u’re ready for love.

"About Men"

*Men say they love independence in a woman, but they don’t waste a second demolishing it brick by brick. Especially those women who has their strong financial stability n career. The relationship is harder to handle. When love became a comparison, the feeling of challenged n imbalance between two will break the love u had. My first relationship lasted for years but didn’t work out because the man i love couldn’t handle the stress i’d caused. My career, my lifestyle. Though we were so in love, the second i got my feet into business n the society, it changes everything n tore us apart. We started to see a big difference in our income n stability. Our needs for different lifestyle, different things~
* A guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep… wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you’re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you…. The one who turns to his friends and says, ‘that’s her.’ I found mine, and i wish that u too, found yours~

"About Women "

*Some say that there is fairy tale in life. But some say there is none. Well, i agree with both. A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life, to be thankful for a good one. In the end of the day, it is up to us to paint the beautiful picture that we had in our dreams… When our man strayed too far out, it is us to get them back, or let them out. Never underestimate how great n powerful a woman can be. Just look at ur mom. She gave u a life ~
*Women marry men hoping they will change. Men marry women hoping they will not. So each is inevitably disappointed. Men have hitherto treated women like birds which have strayed down to them from the heights; as something more delicate, more fragile, more savage, stranger, sweeter, soulful - but as something which has to be caged up so that it shall not fly away. It is because of insecureness that they have, the feeling of losing, the feeling of lost control, taking control…

D way u can choose !!!

Flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticize me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I will not forget you. Love me and I may be forced to love you … Hate me … and i Love U ~
So,what u choose ??? Dont tell me d answer...coz i already don care...

Learning

Learn to accept that not everyone likes the things u do. There’s a saying - A successful person makes a habit of doing what the failing person doesn’t like to do. So stick to what u love, stick to the things u do ~ And let the others say what they wanna say. Besides, how many of them can actually do the things u do ? They can’t, that’s why they wanna talk about u. They can’t do the things u do n they can’t have the things u have… therefore they can only talk about u n hope that our lives will be miserable~ Blah ~ People who are capable wouldn’t have time gossiping about what others do, what they have, this n that, so n so. They are too busy doing their own things, taking their own sweet time while others r talking. Those who talk alot, in their mind, they know that words are powerful. But little did they know that only if words are put into actions ~ Duh ! But it is good coz when they put too much of it together, they made us - A highlighted story to tell… and by then we’ve made our mark ~How easy is that ~

Hate people hurting me...

Learn to laugh it over when u heard things that others say about you. Remember, nobody can hurt you without your permission. If u don’t like them, then don’t grant them one ! Through humour, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it~

Friendship

Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, ‘What! You too? I thought I was the only one?’…and then u share, u help, u give, u listen, u laugh… Until one day, they take away their love from u… and they say everything about u differently… It is dangerous to play the sincere game without defence unless you are also stupid. Friendship is always born with love, but it does not always die with it. Moral indignation happens when there is some slight of jealousy in a halo. And when jealousy feeds upon suspicion, it turns into fury or it ends as soon as we pass from suspicion to certainty…and there comes hatred ~

what i want ??

I keep on doing a lot of things so i can get ehat i want...
But what is it that i really want ?
A car ? A house ? New collections of Louis Vuitton ? A new bag of Pzada ? Perhaps a new watch of Gucci ?
The question is, why do i want it ???
The answer is, i also dont no why...

How to play the game in your life...

First, you have to learns the rules of the game...
Andthen you have to play better than anyone else...
That's the game u must play everyday...

To be thankful

Mirrors are two sided for a reason...
One side is reality and the other is the life you wish you had...
But let me tell you...all my life,i always wonder if it could have been worse or better...
What was missed and what was gained...
Now i realize thet it could always be worse...
So,always be happy for what you have that others don't...
Some people were always grumbling becoz roses have thorns...
But i an thankful that thorns have roses...
So,that we are protected...
We will always be tested in life..."Challenged"
*So that we are always prepared*

love yourself

If people hate the things u love,learn the things they hate...
And learn to love yourself just the way u are .
*Just like how all your frens love you...

Hahaha...Cute Boy...

Today got one boy...come to my house...
He very brave lol,coz he ask my father permission to talking wif me...
Coz nobody can so brave to talk wif my father leh...
So,my father very like him lol...
Hahaha...my father asking me..."is that boy wan u to be his gf ?"
I say "ya..mayb lol"
Hahaha...that boy so cute, handsome,polite n rich lol...
But i wont be his gf...coz,i still love someone in my heart...
Forever and ever...^^

Cant forget you !!

(Cant forget you)

Allready 4days without J ....

"Before"

Sometimes in the morning... i will give J a morning call or J will bring me go to school...

Sometimes in the afternoon...J will featch me go home...

Sometimes in the evening...we will going out together,watching mv,eathing food n shopping...

Sometimes in the night...we will go eating suppper n go pasar malam together...

Sometimes in the midnight...we will talking in the phone hours an hours non stop talking...

Sometimes when i'm boring or sad...J will company me...

Sometimes if i haven't eat yet...J will ask me wan to eat or not...

"But now"

All are by myself...

Nobody featch me go home

Nobody watching mv,eathing food n shopping with me

Nobody will company me eating supper or walking pasar malam

Nobody company me talking phone hours an hours

Nobody can company me when i'm boring or sad

Nobody asking me wan eat or not

* Juz nobody be with me without J *

Those happy life are gone...
Forever and ever...

"We Are One-kelly sweet"

*Didn't need to ask don't knw the reason...
Everything that i believe is right here...
Not thinking 'bout tomorrow could't catch it if i tried...
World is spinning too fast so i'll wait till it come to me...
"I am you,You are me,We are one"
*Take me in your arms and flow through me i'll flow through you...
Steal my breath away cause i'm so maved by you...
Deeper than i ever thought was possible,was possible it's everything...
Difference between me and you...
It's all in where your heart list...
And every day's another chance so let's get it right...
"I am you,You are me,We are one"
Take me in your arms and flow through me i'll flow through you...
*Did you lose yourself out there...
Did you lose faith and give up...
Don't turn away and hide yourself...
Cause there's a friend to make along the way...
We are the heartbeat and our souls speak...
And all the beauty i have ever dreamed...
Is right here in front of me...
Is right here in front of me...
*"I am you,And you are me,We are one"
*Take me in your arms and flow through me i'll flow through you...*
To: Someone Special
**J**

Saw You...

Today...at 12.45pm to 1.o5pm...
Before going back from school,i saw J walking into the teachers office . Suddently, my heart jump so fast...
Haiz@@ maybe i miss him so much,then suddently saw him ba...
I try to miss call him using ph...
I ask him y u come to school so suddently for wat ??
He say.. come and find teachers...
After tat, when i wan to go back..he call me and ask "want him bring me go back ma?"
I say no need..i go back by myself..!!!
*Say the honest way...i really want him to bring me back,but don no y i say like tat to him...(T.T)
So...that's all,i also reach my friends house...
Haizzz...in my heart juz got one word can say is "Miss u so much"